Disillusionment

The thing is, if I think they’re about to hurt me, I won’t just pull away, I’ll disappear. No questions, no confrontation, no explanation, not a peep. I’ll just disappear. And they’ll be left wondering what the hell happened, where did you — where did we — when did everything go so wrong.

Their Questions and Declaration

They never say to you, ‘What does his voice sound like? What games does he love best? Does he collect butterflies?’ Instead, they demand, ‘How old is he? How many brothers has he? How much money does his father make?’ Only from these figures do they think they have learned anything about him.

.Antoine de Saint-Exupéry.

They never say to you, 'What does he do? What are his hobbies? What does he think about his future? What kind of food he likes to eat?' Instead, they demand, 'How old is he? Where does he comes from? Why don't he learned to behave? Why don't he has a settle job? How much money does he make?' Only from these figures do they think they have learned anything about him.

.Me. 

..Leo..

Leo si “Ratu” yang dikagumi dari jauh dan dekat serta berada di bawah pengaruh the Sun which is the Centre of Our Universe, yang nggak seperti planet-planet lainnya kadang berjalan mundur (retrograde), the Sun terus berjalan maju. Dan Leo persis seperti the Sun. Nggak punya waktu untuk masa lalu, Leo sangatlah percaya diri bahkan keras kepala, bahagia dengan moving forward nggak mendendam or looking back.

Leo bisa sangat mengintimidasi – sadar nggak? Keyakinanmu akan diri sendiri kadang mengejutkan zodiac lainnya yang lebih “lemah”. Coba usahakan jangan terlihat seperti nggak butuh orang lain – kamu bisa banget bikin orang percaya hal tersebut, sehingga nggak ada di sisimu saat kamu memerlukan orang lain.

Sama seperti kucing, tergantung pada mood-mu, kamu bisa mengunyah atau mendengkur penuh perhatian. Siapa pun yang pernah mencintai Leo pasti tahu bahwa cinta pada Leo artinya tergaga-gaga pada Leo. Kamu melakukan apapun dengan passion yang cukup untuk memulai api. Zodiakmu sangat berhubungan dengan dramatisasi. Kamu pun suka jadi pusat perhatian dan kenapa tidak? Kamu selalu punya hal yang menarik untuk disampaikan, makanya perhatian orang gampang tertuju padamu. And you love it!

Tapi kamu pun termasuk zodiak yang paling murah hati, memberikan waktu dan uang dan cinta pada siapapun yang menurutmu membutuhkan. Dan saat menghadapi kesulitan kamu pun tetap bisa mempertahankan harga diri serta dihormati pada setiap situasi. Kadang arogan, selalu berwibawa, dan jarang kehilangan sikap.

Satu hal, kamu nggak murahan! Leo memperlakukan diri sendiri sama baiknya seperti memperlakukan orang lain dan kamu menginginkan yang terbaik untuk segala hal – makanan dan mobil dan pakaian dan perintilan yang pantas untuk seorang Ratu, pastinya. Kamu pun murah hati walaupun bisa juga tegas, tapi kamu nggak membiarkan temperamen mengalahkan dirimu. Kamu suka kalau orang lain tahu tempat masing-masing dan siapa pun yang menghabiskan cukup banyak waktu dengan dirimu, akan mengerti hal tersebut. Leo juga adalah zodiak selebriti. Jadi walaupun kamu bukan orang terkenal (yet), gunakan bakat Leo untuk bersinar bagai bintang kemana pun kamu pergi dan apa pun yang kamu lakukan. Kamu tahu kalau kamu memang berbeda dan kamu menikmatinya. Nggak standar, selalu berbeda, Leo memimpin.

Source: Fimela.com

It's time to forget..

Its time to move on (again)

Sometimes Love is not enough...

...and we have to let go.

On My Other Reflection

You should date a girl who takes photographs.

Date a girl who takes photographs. Date a girl whose favourite sound is the click-click of the shutter as it closes and opens to capture a memory. Date a girl who sees beauty in the simplest of things. Date a girl who looks at the world and wonders how to put a little of herself into it.

You might find her in the park, lost behind her lens, the world a blur around her as she tries to capture a single moment in time. You might find her in an exhibit, a look of concentration on her face as she contemplates a photograph that called out to her as she was passing by.  Or maybe you will find her in a bookstore, a book in her lap as she pores over photographs of weddings all the while wondering what hers would look like.

Take her out to photo walks and laugh as she tries to take a picture of you. When she gets tired of walking, buy her cupcakes but wait until she has taken pictures of them before eating them. Listen as she tells you her ideas for a photoshoot on the ride home.

Take her to a restaurant and wait patiently as she surveys the menu carefully, appreciating the food photography. And again, wait until she has taken a photo of your food before digging in. Allow her to introduce you to Ansel Adams while you both eat your lunch. Introduce her to your favorite musician as you wait for the bill to arrive. When you get home, change your Facebook profile picture to a photograph she has taken of you. She silently hopes for it.

Take stolen shots of her. Compile it and give it to her on her birthday. Tell her you love her over and over until your voice replaces the click of the shutter as her favourite sound. Kiss her on the nose as she lifts her head up from the camera. Give her camera-shaped necklaces. Go places with her.

You will never be bored again.

Date a girl who takes photographs. She will never whine about a little dirt on her favourite pair of jeans as she kneels down to get a better angle of her subject. She will never be afraid to go on adventures with you. She will take photographs of you not just with her camera but with her mind as well and keep it to herself to admire late at night. But above all, she will teach you how to look at the world through different perspectives and she will do so unknowingly.

Marry a girl who takes photographs. Ditch those wedding photography books and give her the most beautiful wedding you could. She will teach your kids to find the beauty in everything just as she has taught you. Every day will be an adventure as she tries to create memories photograph-worthy with you. She may wake you up in the middle of the night because she is buzzing with ideas but she will make it up in the morning with a stack of hot pancakes beside a steaming cup of your favourite coffee blend.

Grow old with a girl who takes photographs. Sit with her on the front porch as you both pore over the bits and pieces of the moments you’ve shared together. Stroke her hair as you both relive the photo walks that you took and the places you went when you were both young. Smile as you both reenact your clever wedding vows.

Date a girl who takes photographs because she will never let anyone take you away from her like she will never let anyone steal her photographs. Because she will inspire the fuck out of you. Because she will always see that “something” in the most “nothing” of things.

- Claiie

"I don't open up my self to you because you had close yours to me"